However morbid I may be, buried beneath it all, I find it far less miserable when you hug me

I try to distract myself from thinking. I do everything to not think, but my bad thinking slowly wins every time

It’s almost 2025، and I feel like I haven’t evolved ، on the contrary l’ve sunk ..

Why was I the one who had to make the sacrifice?

The doctor told me i’d be dead by next june, unless i stop all these pills im iiinto, its hard its hard to get to the part.
It’s okay baby i know im about to diiie, yeah ive been doing drugs since 13 now im 20

There's nothing on the earth is capable to make me feel good

all your secrets safe with me because imma forget anyway

I can fight the man that are looking at you .....

But im powerless against a man you're looking at

If im being honest….

I lost hope in finding my person cuz the only thing that i found was seeing that nobody truly gives a fck and its gonna always and only be you feeling that unnecessary guilt in the end

Im very genuine person and im far too emotional and i care too much, and ive definitely cared to much in situations and been fcked over

She was the one with the broken smile, now that its done, she was the one that worth my time

This year has been the worst f***ing year of my entire life, period, 2024 has been s*** part of it is life and part of it is me, im not just gonna blame it all on life there’s always something that we could have done understand? throughout the worst things that u go through there’s always something that u can do, and i admit that, but throughout the months i just became piece of s*** i lost hope, i lost faith, im not gonna go fully into it, im not gonna talk about this s***, it’s one thing that imma do though im not gonna talk about 2025, im just gonna work, im not gonna talk im not gonna say imma do this and that, all imma do, i pray to god to handle all my problems, i pray to god please guide me to the right way, i pray to god that i make it, imma give it all my hard work, imma give it my best and im just gonna leave it all up to god, thats it

I ain’t got no friends, i only got one friend that i can see and talk to in real life and hang out with, and thats my twin brother, rest of my friends are overseas but thats what happens when u real, if i was a fake, i know i have a lot of ppl around me a lot of other fake a** motherf**ers around me u understand? but because i take friendship seriously i don’t speak no bulls***, u know what im saying, im speaking the truth always and i tell motherf**ers the truth whatever they like to hear it or not, motherf**ers dont wanna be around me, u know what im saying ‘cause i take friendship seriously motherf**ers dont like that, but its okay though i wanna stay like this, its cool

When ur girl comes up to u to tell you about her problems, sometimes she knows exactly what to do, she’s got all the solutions in the world and she doesn’t need ur advice, she’s just wants u to listen to her and make her feel better bro, if it f***king rains on her and she gets wet just blame on the rain, you understand? Just make her feel better, don’t be like oh, u should do this and this and this, she doesn’t want that, bro you understand? girls are emotional and u gotta learn how to deal with it

If u have a bad habit or a bad personality trait, and im not talking about extreme shi*, okay? just bad shi* that you do, you understand? assuming that u act that way with everyone imma accept you the way that u are and imma try to live with it. now if i find out that you only act that way towards me, that’s what imma take it personal and that’s when imma get mad about it ‘cause u don’t do that shi* to other ppl, why u only do it to me

Now i realize that overthinking is the enemy of action, imagine open door and you’re standing in front of that open door and is giving u all the keys that u need to succeed but ur sitting there talking yourself out of walking through it, know what i realize is when u overthinking u create problems that dont exist what if i fail what if ppl laugh at me what if ppl dont like me all of those problems that we start to create when we give ourselves more time to think about what it is that we truly desire or what it is thats stopping us from walking through that door
Im not saying walk in front of a car, be conscious of every thought that u have or everything that ur about to do or the things ur about to act on but dont give yourself enough time to talk yourself out of the things that are literally showing u that they’re for u
To be honest with u overthinking doesn’t stop the fear it makes u worse so while ur sitting overthinking somebody else is out doing
What’s truly crazy is u dont understand that confidence ia built by action is not built by thinking u have to so something u have to start that u can build confidence even if its not perfect the first time around cuz through that fail and through the process of becoming u’ll find confidence and u’ll find the things that make u realize that it was meant for u to begin with

Im the type of person to sit and listen to all ur problems….. while im going through my own everyday, that explains how caring i am