i hope u come and save me but that’s too selfish of me

attention seeker

funny that i want to be saved but none save me, at last i just call suicide hotline to yap

oh to be loved more than you love

i’m tired of crying, forgiving and for it to repeat all over again and cry again and forgive again and repeat. i just want to be understood, felt without feeling i’m too much. i’m not a puzzle u settled, i am a human, with emotion, with brain, with pride, with memories.

apa sekali pon aku ada aku je, aku kena kuat walaupon dah tak mampu

aku kena move forward jugak

pilihan apa yang aku ada

lately everything is blurry

i dont see my future, i’m so tired of living like this

i’m tired

exhausted

frustrated

fed up

there is no where i could feel alive, no where i could breath

i’m so lonely, i’m so alone

i really dont have anyone to pat me on my back, hug me and make me feel safe and love

i really cant take this anymore

funny all i got rn is a hotline, where i could feel normal and humane. heard, cared

ironically they didnt pick up either, see no one wants me here